Saturday, November 29, 2008 2:03 AM
i hate siding, i detest siding, i despise siding, i abhor siding!
why am i landed to such a pathetic state?
Kusum- I'm sorry that i replied you in such a way. Seriously, you think i would really do that? I tell ya, i'm really not that mean & i can't bear to do it either, 'cause ya know, i don't really burst it out directly, you know this part of me, right?
What i can say is, anjali & sunita are not in good conditions with you currently. I was with them during that period of time, so yeah, they wanted me to write those 'er' & 'eh' 'cause i told them that i felt that it was kinda rude when you said those 2 words so they wanted you to feel the same way. I'm sorry but i can't hold it any longer, i'm guilt-stricken by the fact that i actually wrote those to you. Forgive me kay? But i just wanted to let you know that i find it kinda rude 'cause the person just sms you casually but you reply with those 'er' & 'eh'.
Sunita- I think its better for you to trash things out with her 'cause she is still pondering what went wrong between the 3 of us. I think she would understand better if things are clarified. & Ya! Thanks for not giving up on *you know i know*. I appreciate your help, dearest! I hope we can make your wish come true real soon! Please do not give up on us okay? :)
Anjali- Chill yaws. She doesn't hate you. That's just a part of your thinking, girl. Why must friends hate one another? So yeah, do try to talk things out with her also okay loves?
I'm sorry y'all 'cause when i'm with you all, im siding with you all. But when i'm with others, i'm siding them. I cant bear to hurt any parties 'cause i want all my friends to be together without any arguments. I'm speechless now 'cause i seem to be the go-in-between.
Trust me, i'm really not the type of girl you think i am, those type of friends who side. I can't bear to do things y'all want me to do .. I will feel guilty.
I'm such a sore-loser that i can't tell all these face to face 'cause i don't want to hurt any of you. I really have enough of this pretence. No more please! I just can't bear to see you all arguing though i'm part of it.
Although i have high self-esteem, this one really seems to bring my self-esteem down.
I think i need a break from all these. Move on, Don't look back. It is gone, that which was once bliss. It hurts .. -quoted by Ashwin.
Hope you all understand me kay loves!
Can i own a time machine & rewind those happy moments back? Please, santa? :(
